I need to get another loan today so I can pay my bills on time this month. The last thing I need is to fall behind again on them. I did that a few months ago and the late fees were horrendous. What I really need is to either find a roommate or move out into a cheaper apartment. I live in a two bedroom unit right now and don’t even use the 2^nd bedroom. It is more like a den but you could easily fit a bed in there. I pay $700 a month and if I could get a roommate in there to pay $300 plus half the utilities I would be set. I have tried before but the only people that came to look at it were really weird.

The one guy must have been in his 50’s and he just gave off a weird vibe. He talked a mile a minute for one thing and he also said he had a girlfriend that would be staying there with him some nights. The other interested party was a guy around my age that had noticeable dandruff on his shirt. I figured a guy that walks around like that probably isn’t going to be the cleanest person in the world. He also was in-between jobs so I doubt I could have relied on him to pay up each month.

My lease is up here in three months so I need to figure out which direction I want to go. I would like to move out to a 1 bedroom place but moving is such a pain. I loathe it in every way possible especially the costs involved. It isn’t cheap renting a moving truck for a day. I wish I had a friend with a large pickup truck but that isn’t the case. My friend Tony used to have one but he now lives a few hours away so it isn’t like I am going to call him and ask him to drive back to help me.

I also need to start looking for another job although I know that is pretty much a dead end. I don’t have a college degree so my options are limited. I’m actually lucky to be where I’m at now with my current job because I doubt they would hire me if I applied now. The last couple people they hired all have degrees.

I’m starting to think yes. We have been working at the same place now for almost 4.5 months and when I first laid my eyes on her I was just so caught up by her beauty, and immensely attracted to her. We have never actually talked, and got to know each other, but we have had some sort of communication with each other (though very minimal), ex – thanks after holding the door open, looking at each other when walking by in the hall, etc.

Well I notice there are many times, where I will have to go by her desk or near her, and she will often stare at me. Sometimes, its a quick glance, sometimes its a 2-3 second stare. I notice quite a few times where see will all of a sudden just stop what she is doing and stare at me, if I were to walk by when she least expected me to. Other times she will stare me from head to toe.

Today after work, I was grabbing my stuff and heading out the door to the elevators, when I exit my room her and a couple friends were walking by on the way to the elevators as well. She was talking and making eye contact with her friends, until she spotted me and just kinda froze and stared at me…at least 3 or 4 seconds. I think it was more like a gaze. It definitely caught my attention, its hard to describe the way she looked at me. She looked keyed in on something.

but honestly, do girls just do this by chance or is there always a reason why, if they stare like this?